January 19th, 200624.1
Yes, my bilirubin’s gone up again and I want to die. I thought I looked yellower… and I knew I was itchier, but I just thought that was because I had changed my meds.
And my mom left today.
I’m going to go cry now. And itch a lot. And then take some medication and hopefully it will knock me out of this fucked up hell I’m in.
Sorry, no good side, no up side, just down sides today.
leaving you a hug. hope u feel better soon. :O)
ps – i miss my mom too 🙁
Comment by Prerona — January 19, 2006 @ 5:17 pm
Maybe it is the change of meds, before your body adjusts. Have you phoned the specialist?
Comment by anne — January 19, 2006 @ 5:33 pm
call the doc when you wake from your drug induced stupor.
i hope you get better… i’m sending you good thoughts and feel better vibes. i’m no hippy so i don’t know if they’ll work, but i’ll try anyway.
hugs sistah! take care!
Comment by wendykat — January 19, 2006 @ 6:17 pm
Gosh…it is taking forever. Hope you get better real soon, dear.
Hugs.
Comment by Me, Myself and I — January 20, 2006 @ 4:24 am
The labs were taken at the specialist’s office, so I hadn’t change meds yet. Hopefully by next week’s blood tests they will go down. I don’t know.
My dad thinks that it might keep climbing, which sucks and makes me want to jump off tall buildings.
Thanks for the good thoughts and vibes and hugs.. 🙂
Me: It might take forever. Now they’re telling me I might have to deal with this for 3-6 months. 🙁 🙁
Comment by the insider — January 20, 2006 @ 1:07 pm
I’ll still love you even if your yellow.
You lose too much more butt, though, that’s another story.
Have a doughnut.
Comment by Grampa — January 20, 2006 @ 2:25 pm
Jackass… you’re the one who told me to eat fruits and vegetables.
Make up your damn mind. 😛
Comment by the insider — January 20, 2006 @ 2:39 pm
Fruits and vegetables with a doughnut on top.
Or, fruit filled puff-pastry. That sounds delicious.
Comment by Grampa — January 20, 2006 @ 2:44 pm
Actually… nooo.. not so much. Gag. Sorry ::shrug::
Although come to think of it.. cherry puff pastry does taste particularly delicious in certain situations. 🙂
Comment by the insider — January 20, 2006 @ 2:51 pm
oh god ew. what “certain situations”? do we have to tell your mom about this too?
Comment by wendykat — January 20, 2006 @ 4:33 pm
That sucketh. big time.
Healing vibes coming your way…
Comment by Jabberwocky — January 20, 2006 @ 4:49 pm
Wendy… shit I had to remind him what certain situations… and no, we definitely don’t need to tell mom. 😛
Jabber.. yeah and thanks. 🙂
Comment by the insider — January 21, 2006 @ 3:53 pm
ew. ew. ew.
Comment by wendykat — January 21, 2006 @ 4:06 pm
It wasn’t ewwy… I cleaned it off quite well, thank you. 😉
Comment by the insider — January 21, 2006 @ 4:15 pm
gahhh! my eyes! my eyes!
Comment by wendykat — January 21, 2006 @ 7:24 pm